i hurt so much inside
i dont think you could ever understand
no matter how hard you tried.
i feel so awful
and always so guilty
the lies i've bene living
aren't so healthy.

i want to just stand up tall
and tell you the truth
and not hold back any
any at all.

but im afraid of you
and im afraid of me.
im afraid of the inside girl
the one who could potentially kill me.

i dont want your worry or your pity
i am not worth your time.
i am nothing at all
don't pay me no mind.

and i love you all so much
honestly i do
otherwise i would have
continued to lie to you.

xoxo
Ellie