The pain collected, pooled, dripped,
Slid out of my control.
In the red of captured pain,
Your name was lost.
Somewhere, somewhere cold and unvisited,
I knew why it hurt so much.
You were the undercurrent to two years,
Two years of collapse.
I denied it, painted the wall black,
Pretended it was irrelevant.
But baby, you pushed the first domino.

Innocent baby blue eyes darkened,
To a navy that knew depression's depths.
I matured, I learnt reality,
It was the hardest thing I ever faced.
I stumbled over the last obstacle,
When I straightened you were there.
We brushed the dirt off our knees,
And kissed away the poison past.
You unplugged your heart inbetween,
But my scarred secret is,
I left mine on simmer.