Ohhh, if I had only chose you
I whisper thoes words to you
inside my heart
as I lay beside another
carefull not let go of 
the grip on my feelings
for fear they might be spoken... 
as I dream
and my deep seckret will be revieled.

I delight at the mention of your name
and cleverly hide my desire to know
every thing you said, about anything
you make laugh, and smile
your like sunshine on my sholders
one of my favorite things


I will never know how it could have been
we didn't get past friendship
I never really gave you half a chance 
even though you tried to turn my head
now my chance is gone...forever
And you will never know how much 
the regret eats me alive
slowly each day

I was so stupid I thought I needed more
But I've ended up with so very little
I watch you now, going along so wealthy
in love, in joy, in all the things I wanted
all I do not have, all I'm dying for
I see now how much you really did have to offer
Its a maddning thought everytime I see you.
And knots form new in my stomach.

I rely on a life support system
of my own creation
steeling glimpes of you
Can you see through my smile?
Can you tell how I really feel?
Can you detect my longing for you? 
you still smile at me soooo sweetly
it melts my heart, then cools
to form another layer of hardness