My tears are salty on my lips
Can't seem to stop to cry
It aches too much inside of me
For reasons I can't find

(... Sometimes late at night I realize I don't feel at
all...
... Maybe that's what hurts the most...)

It aches, it burns, It makes me scream
Keeps me safe from all
My heart is dead for evermore
My phantom pain - my wall

(... Somehow it feels safer to hurt than not to hurt...
... I guess it's because it's the only thing I know...)

And even though it's killing me
I guess that's what I need
I need my pain to stay with me
I need my misery

(... For who am I without what's shaped me through all of
those years?
... When I lose myself, I'll have nothing at all...)

When pain gets overwhelming
Everything else disappears
It feels like you're unbreakable
When you can't feel, you can't fear

(... It's not like I enjoy to be in pain or to hurt
myself...
... It's just so familiar... And safe...)