"THE DISEASE IS KNOWING"

DESPITE EVERYTHING YOU THOUGHT
YOU STILL DID IT 
AND IT STILL HURT EVEN THOUGH IT 
SHOULD NOT OF 
WAS IT YOUR WATCHING SOMEONE WITH SOMEONE
OR WAS IT THE FACT THAT I'M NEVER AROUND

I DID MY BEST TO MAKE YOU HAPPY 
BUT YOUR SIMPLE REPLY WAS ANOTHER MAN
AND DESPITE EVERYTHING I SAID 
THE DISEASE IS KNOWING THAT 
I CAN'T TRUST
NOT EVEN MY OWN LOVE 

THE DISEASE IS TAKING OVER AND YOU CAN'T STOP
WHAT YOU'VE DONE AS YOU 
RETURN TO HIM EVERY FRIDAY
JUST BECAUSE YOU KNOW I CAN'T BE THERE 
FOR YOU LIKE I SHOULD BE 
YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST STOPPED HIM THE FIRST TIME