i dont know how to act anymore.
i've lost all sense of understanding
i dont know whats right anymore
whether to scream, cry, be silent or still.
i want to run away from failure
yet im chained to stay for hope
the pain from it all
is twice the burden on my shoulders;
twice as heavy
twice as painful
twice the stress, anger and confusion.
i want to slap you sometimes
i just want to beat the sense back into you
at the same time
i want to hug you
and hold you close, rock you, make you better.
the power to do that lies in my mind
a wish that will never be granted
a hope that will never die
a tear that will never dry
open arms that will never close.