Sometimes once in my life if I discovered 
That the love of my life loves somebody
I want to tell myself
That "I'm ugly! He hates me!"

Or I would feel sorry for myself
That why was I born like this
No beauty to compare, No achievements to bare
I was intolerable to others, they couldn't put up with me

Jealousy and envy once captured my mind
Thinking, why of all persons
My best friend, he loves the most
My best friend, who only thinks of herself

And the only person I can think of is GOD..
Asking him 'All of my life you've given me problems
Why this? To test my heart and soul to be strong?
I don't think so….

I could have give up 
To think that my problem was getting out of hand
It was too much for me
Seeing them both together happy

Why can't I just be happy for them?
I can't fill my best friend's shoes
Because it hurts too much inside of me
It hurts because I can't let go….. 


2002 Jordan Ivy Jane L.