i dont wanna say it to make things right
im tired of the pressure i dont want to fight
i wont lie, im not going to argue
besides the answers pretty crude
i dont love just to hold this together
i dont love just cuz 
you say it will make things better
i loveD you because it felt right
not an insane thought that escaped
because id lost the fight.
crazy(?), it felt good
wrong(?), it made me feel so light
i dont feel it was a lie.
dont know why you thought..
doesnt matter.
i dont care, it hurt, cant lie,
but this is stupid, i wont wish id die
i feel strangly euphoric 
love was a battle, 
though id never fallen for its tricks
i liked the feeling of giving up.
but this is undecided
ive just decided i dont give a fuck.