Gloomy and unsatisfied my emotions seem to dwell deeper
into,
For support and understanding those certain loved ones do
not do,
Or show rather, seeing as how I always want to be away from
home,
For it does not matter home or not my heart continues to
make me feel alone,
Unwanted my existence notices more each and every day,
I don’t know what to do and when spoken to, I don’t know
what to say,
And as our world moves on and keeps ripping into the pages
of disaster,
Everything starts going wild and in the book of my life, I
would like to jump to a different chapter,
But wait I must for time heals all,
Just like when I was a young boy waiting to grow tall,
Upset, worried, and depressed for some reason I always am,
I need to convert myself into a better, more optimistic
man,
And yet it’s so hard because everything does nothing but
goes downhill,
It’s not fair and heated I am and I realize I need to
chill,
But I can’t seem to, no matter how hard I try,
I watch my life quietly as it slowly passes by,
I am so bothered by the twisted emotions that humans can
feel,
I know some people ignore it and it appears as me making it
a big deal,
To me though, this is bothering and has become quiet the
ordeal,
Please tell me things will change and that reality to me
will become real,
I look up as the tears of our loved ones fall from the
clouds,
I try to scream for help at the top of my lungs, but
obviously so far my message isn’t very loud,
What to do, so confused my feelings bounce around inside the
depth of my soul,
I need to stop thinking and act and attempt to grab a hold,
To something I evidently do not have, in which I speak is
control,
Why so complex my feelings specifically have to be,
No one understands, not even the beholder known as me,
Or in other words the spirit that activates this vessel,
I want to stop feeling so negative, for it makes me feel
like a devil,
Maybe more or less like a demon,
For some sort of help, I continue to be famine,
And look for all throughout my life,
Help is all I need, so I don’t have to grab another
knife,
Some people do not understand why certain people make the
actions they make,
Maybe it’s because their disturbed and curious, to know
whether their place in this world is fake,
It is true unintelligent specific moves that are made are
truly just not smart,
But if help is given along with understanding, maybe those
who need it will begin life with a more positive start,
And if assisted in the proper manner which is needed,
Maybe certain wounds internal or external will finally stop
bleeding,
A new fresh start is what seems to be a very interesting
goal,
Life is so far away and I want to push forward and get a
hold,
So I can restart or fix what is incomplete,
But alone I can not do it and without help, I may just be
beat.
By: Tyler Golden