Perplexed I ask, how do I allow myself to feel
If I do I'm scared it will make it appear so real
Now's the time for me to be conscious of my needs
So open the gates and follow where that path leads
This heartfelt situation I empower myself to accept
To understand tears from which my eyes I have wept
As I give myself permission to genuinely let go
Everlasting freedom to my soul I do bestow
Extricate my feelings and liberate my mind
Don’t be afraid of what I may find
While being attentive to each arising emotion
I recognise my feelings as they play in slow motion
No longer in denial, just relax and let them flow
There is no judgment as tears I concede to show
I allow myself to accept my marriage has finished
However refusing to let my sensibility become diminished
Embrace my ambivalent feelings and set them free
For there is no shame in this I now agree
Accepting I gave it my best I gave it my all
Discerning release, keen to be mindful as I fall
Streaming tears of sorrow along with tears of joy
My soul and my will this can never destroy
I want to be loved I want to be seen
Learning life’s lesson from where I have been
Time heals all; there is no guarantee
As I wade through the mist I honestly hope I find me!