It' like i have been dragged under the water by a wave,
Captive by an uncontrollable force.
Wondering when that power around me will release me?

My head feels shaken, my body sore,
Holding my breath, closing my eyes

Just hoping to once again take that breathe I'm longing
for,
What feels like forever literally takes a few seconds.
Its weird how clearly i can think when forced by nature,
Relentlessly swaying under the wave.

I finally feel the calm as i rise to take that longed
breath.
Feels like that never happened?
Still, i am in the water- not scared?

I'm still thinking and functioning as normal despite the few
grazes.
I see another wave come..
am i scared? or will it be a calming one?
I stand still griping firmly onto these thoughts...

How much does this represent my life?
How many times have i been here?
I get to taken with life.
I go through these bad experiences- yet, i still get up,
take a breathe and battle on through.
not scared of whats in front of me.

How many times have i been held captive by my experiences?
Why haven't i just got out of the water? ended my life?
Perhaps i know that the 'calm wave' will eventually come,
and i can then be truly happy.

Yes, i have some grazes and hurts,
but i take them to mark my experiences- as if not to
forget.
I can look back and say- yer that happened for this reason,
i learnt so much out of that pain.

I think the calmness has begun to hit,
and i wonder why it hasn't happened to me earlier.
Im just floating gently feeling the water glide past my body
with ease, gently kissing my skin.

A little worried but eager to see what happens next,
Will i be happy with what makes me happy now?
Will i be good enough?
All my insecurities fall on me like rain,
Trying to ruin the way i feel.

But i fight through it i wanna make a new life- and go
through the next wave.
I know it'll get calmer as i get more focused,
it'll get deeper even though there is more distance to be
dragged under- harder to get up.

But i want that with you,
I wanna give you my all and not hold back.
I wanna give you my love and be in love,
Soon it'll reach the calm with you.

No need for fears or worries,
just perfectly being happy with  you.
No need for the waves,the dragging the grazes,
i'll find comfort knowing i am secure.

Not scared that if it doesn't work i could be back under the
wave,
you're worth the risk.
I have come so far I'm not turning back,
I'm in this water- have come through the waves and i am
alright.

It's washed me up to you,
You give me that security i need.
Your my 'flotation device',
you keep me safe and secure.
I know your going to be there to hold me forever when the
waves get a Lil rough.

I love you and i will stay in this place with you forever.
Thank you for helping me through the waves and grazes- and
holding me while we reach the calm.

I feel safe when I'm with you- i love you,
don't let me drown. 
you have my trust, my hopes, my heart n soul and I'm so in
love....