The man who never was
Actions and inactions just because
Never knowing right from wrong
Living in tormented silence for so long

To remain a victim I will never understand
Choosing to stand alone in no mans land
Not embracing help to recover
Rather he chose to escape in vodka undercover

How does one desire substance over family affection?
Love and loyalty of your partner not to mention
Would not ultimate justice be to survive in spite?
Instead repetitive maladaptive behaviours he'd ignite

Trapped a child’s mind in a mans shell
Inside demons and monsters they do dwell
So much energy wasted on continual sabotage
To think we could make it was my fading mirage

A stranger that I thought I once knew
Now I know not what is true
So many lies and endless cunning deception
Only now do I see with a new depth of perception

Accepting my love and devotion not suitable
My heart believes my fidelity and support were irrefutable
When you abandoned us something inside me painfully died
However refusing never to become a victim alongside


You gave up on us, you gave up on me
Now in the aftermath I clean up the endless debris
I've been protecting myself from the aggression in you
From all the hurt and pain you calculatingly do

The unrelenting cruelty you aim towards us is so unjust
I have not seen any changes in you I can ever again trust
Now is the time for me to stand bold and assertive
Of my courageous boy remaining vigilantly protective

It is no longer just about you
I am now empowered to perceive you true
Mindful of your rigorous deceptive conducts
Your facade’ falls as your character self destructs

No longer will I allow you to be the source of my fear
Understanding and accepting my future is mine to steer
Many fine qualities I now believe I do possess
Discerning characteristics emerging with finesse

I will no longer allow you in my life to intrude
Controlling how your actions and inactions affect my mood
I’ve learnt that my needs are of utmost importance
Creating changes in my life in an attempt to enhance

I leave you feeling rejuvenated and energetic!
Being able to express farewell is rather poetic
My eyes will no longer see you if you pass on by
I feel invigorated and free to finally say goodbye!