Strained my heart beats to rapid to catch
Mind racing as it tirelessly attempts to match
Inside pressure builds as threats rise
Even after I feel I've expressed goodbyes
Will he ever leave me alone?
I think I've proven I can cope on my own
His crap I won't continue to accept
My tears are mine alone to have wept
Perilously feeling on edge
Nervously swaying standing on a ledge
Internally shaking due to external pressure
My mind set I find hard to measure
Wary of who walks behind me
Feeling terrified of him my eyes may see
Why does he continue to behave so cruel?
Is he so intent on my anxiety to fuel?
Why I don't think I will ever understand
Determined not to let him gain the upper hand
Sagaciously I control my respiration
Profoundly searching inside for clear inspiration
On my support circle for now I lean
Maintaining functionality to support my teen
For he is my real he is my drive
Displaying mental fortitude I do strive
Believing in leading by example
Conscious of his sensibilities not to trample
To alleviate my sons stress I willingly take
All his extra tension I'd rather my heart ache
I feel like I’m being pulled in all directions
Mindful of my son to display genuine affections
As pressures build within I must vent
Holistic strength conscious not to dent
Motivated by my sons well being
Unconditional love I want him to be seeing
To guide and protect is my goal
From the first day till the last is a mum’s role!