depressed on the inside calm on the surface
still living my life like a two faced person
would do who can i tell
it feels like hell 
not being able to speak
my heart breaks as everyone leaves 
me alone with my thoughts and now im scared
it grabs me by the throat and the air thats shared
is leaving my body escaping my breath
it slimes over my skin consuming my flesh
is bruised with hatred and everything but
love i have lived without while i try to shut 
the doors to my past
how long will this last
i hope im alive but im praying im asleep
this cant be reality although i know its not a dream
is something beautiful which ive never understood
a person like me i dont think would
know how to fight something so strong 
as this thats been with me for so long
ive tried
and forever ive cried
my tears are dry
my hearts a lie
ive lived with til the end
becareful my friend
for now its your turn
to feel the burn