The fight begins inside, again,
I feel the start of doubt,
A flame is lit, it burns with pride,
And suddenly, I'm cast out.

I close my eyes to tears this time,
And feel the past return.
I try to breathe around the pain,
But still the fire burns.

In the corners of my mind, I know,
This will always be the same,
I'm lost in shadow, swamped in doubt,
But I know you're not to blame.

You're just caught here in my heart, somewhere,
And I'm searching deep inside,
I wish to scream and cry for you,
Yet I wish to pray and hide.

But on my knees I shuffle near,
I can beat the past, I know,
I claw my way though my own fear,
Until I am strong enough to go.

I reach out slow with trembling hand,
In fear; you'll turn away,
But just a ghost I have become,
And you have no wish to stay.

I feel like I am nothing now,
As I watch your swift retreat,
I tried to get past fireflies,
But I couldn't brave the heat.

Falling out of my own dreams,
I open my eyes again,
The images have disappeared,
But still lingers pain.

And though you're still here by my side,
I feel a spark of doubt,
A flame begins, it burns with pride,
And again, I am cast out.

In the corners of my mind, I know,
It will always be the same,
I'm lost in shadow, swamped in doubt,
But reaching for the flame.