Those Junior High Years

The only reason I got up for school Was to see your beautiful face. Whoever knew that last day of school Would be our last embrace. That year of school seemed to last forever. It never seemed to end. Here I go I'll tell it now Even though my heart won't mend. I met you in 6th grade. I thought you were so funny and sweet. I wanted you as my best friend But there was no open seat. I didn't really talk to you Until half the school year was already ran. That's when I started my period And everything began. I started to talk to you more Because I wanted you to see That I wanted to be your friend Just as everyone else wanted to be. You would not talk to me as much as I tried to talk to you. So I started to get mad and cry Just so I could speak to you, too. It always seemed to work. You always felt so bad. You'd talk to me even more But I still felt so sad. Then I started to get mixed feelings. I wanted you more then what we were. I didn't want you this way! That is just how the tables turned. Soon it was 8th grade year. I had you in almost every class. I wanted you to be my partner For every single project we had. I started to tell you the things That I have felt for so long. You would always blow me off Saying my feelings were wrong. One night at a football game You asked me what I felt. I told you what I thought But with this you've never delt. Days went by since I felt like this. I started to lean on you more and more. I didn't want you to ever leave me Because I felt I would run into a door. I needed you there with me. You were my only strength to survive But I knew I shouldn't have treated you that way! It was ruining yours and my life. All to soon later, I started to cut myself Just to prove my love to you. It always worked every day Because you would start to feel sorry for me and cry, too. Then you told me that you hurt Because I lied so much. I tried to stop the lies But when I did, our friendship would die. Once you went to the Guidance Counsler To let her know what has happened. You didn't tell her at first about my love for you But soon she had to know the truth. You had to drag me to the Counsler That first day that I was there. You stayed there with me until she made you go And when you left my heart did tear. The counsler wanted to see me more and more. When you wouldn't talk to me I went to her room To talk about all that has happened And how I was in such doom. You didn't know it at all But you knew me so well. When you would talk on the internet to me You knew everything I was feeling and wanted to tell. You told me once that I knew you like that, too. I could say things to you about how you felt And got them right you said. That left on my heart a big welt. That made me know that we were ment to me Maybe not in the way I wanted it to be But maybe just as friends. So I bugged you even more and more for you to see. I bugged you so much than I should have. I put so much pressure on you. I shouldn't have leaned on you so much But my heart was breaking in two. Soon I started to see a counsler outside of school And soon you started to, also. They let you see things differently And that made me feel so low. Because now you know that I was the bad friend When you used to think I was a good one For loving you so much and wanting to care for you. Now all you wanted to do was run. Now as the last day of school aproached My father because I was harrasing you that year I had to go to a new school To be far away from you but I wanted to be near. I couldn't stand to be away from you Even for two days. So how could I spend a whole next year With out you and your ways? On the last day of school we had to say our good byes. I didn't want you to leave me But now I had to leave you. I gave you so long ago of my heart the key. This was going to be hard I knew. I couldn't even be away from you the weekend. Now the whole next year I'd miss you And my heart would never mend. I hugged you so many times. I wanted to kiss you again Like we did that one day But that would just bring more pain. So I hugged you again as I got on my bus. We could talk on the internet you said But not seeing you would still hurt. It would feel as though my heart was dead. So there it happened The whole story of those Junior High years. My heart is still aching so bad And I still cry those very tears. I'm trying to move on. I still talk to you sometimes. You still talk to me even though you pretend It's not you but i know you to well to break the vine. You will always be in my heart Even when I'm married and old. You were my first love And my heart is engraved with your name in bold.