I walk down the halls  shielding my mind from them
They will never know what makes me want to tear my soul out

The self-inflicted pain I endure is unbearable 
It is not
and never can become physical 
Because then they will see into my tainted soul 

My mind is darkened by its thoughts 
every joyous memory becoming clouded 
until it's no more 
Fear is what keeps me from wondering in wonder 
For fear of getting trapped in the soul sucking monster

A battle of the mind 
thats the war I fight 
A fight not against flesh 
but the evil spirits that want company

They feed off of my anguish 
They dance and scream their praises 
Growing strong but not cocky
They know I will always have the power to take my mind back


But the question is 
Am I ready to fight?