Disdain awakens from the core
A mess on the floor
That resembles me
Or what used to be

A thief robs me of life
Caring not of how I strive
A spanner in the works
One too many jerks

Emotionally poor, I lay
Hating all of today
With a pinch of pity, I crawl
Into the hole where rats gnaw

Unaware of the "X" 
That marks my chest
I stroll around till I sense pain
Infiltrate my veins

From all directions 
Shots fire to score more abrasions
Fatality offered from each corner
Enough is enough - I surrender