none of it worked until just recently.
even though you hate it, please just try to cope with me,
because i don't know that i could stop..
but i do know i don't want to right now.
it's a lot to take it, but i'm not giving in,
i'm not giving up.
i can't care anymore if you think i'm fucking up.
please just wish me good luck,
because i've just felt so far gone and hopeless for so
long.
getting closer to what *you* wanted didn't feel right,
and no matter how hard i try
it never works.

just hold my hand as i walk away from the hurt.
as i get farther away.. i know i won't know
all the right words to say.
but i love you, i'll always love you,
even though i don't expect it back.
if you must shut the door, atleast leave a crack.
i don't want to push you all away.
i want so much for you to stay..
but i WILL NOT CHANGE FOR YOU OR ANYONE.
i'm sick and tired to death of holding back
from things i want for everyone.

i just want you to see this is how i feel good.
i just want you to his see this is how i am "me".
i just want you to see that this how i am happy.

love michelle.