Cant Believe This Happened (Long Poem *Rape*), by ~*You Shouldnt Mumble~*
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I can’t believe this has happened
To such a person
It is burning in her eyes
The fiery pain of hate
Hate so deep you could never find it
Down a deep hole of shadow and despair
You see how she stares at you
With eyes so scared and filled with hate
You don’t understand what you did
To make her this way
She was one of your best friends
Until after one day
She was with you all the time
And she always called you at the right time
When you wanted someone to talk to
She was always there before that day
At a friends party that got away
You don’t remember how it went
All that stayed in that head of yours
Was only when you came
You were with her in the beginning
And you don’t know about the end
You drank a couple of beers with her
And got a little ahead
Until then you don’t remember
That needed to know night
Your friends tell you “Way-ta-go”
Yet you don’t know why
All you went for was a midnight ride
For a party and that’s all
Finally someone breaks and tells you the news
“You had took advantage of your very best friend
And did it with her that very same night
She said no at first but you gave her more drinks
Making her not have a thought of mind”
You fall back to the wall
Thinking you couldn’t have done this anyone
You look back at you very best friend
And tears swell in your eyes as she stares with hate
Hiding that very date
Not wanting you to be in trouble
Counted as rape
You love her even more and still feel like shit
For what you had done to this very friend
All because of a party and a little bit of Bacardi
She finally says “Hi” to you one fateful day
After you trying so hard to talk to her
You don’t know what to say
Having the thought of you and her
You stand so silent
She stands there looking at the side of you
As you look at her eyes
Burning with fear and hate
“Im sorry” you finally say
She still don’t stir thinking away
Tears start to fill her eyes
As she thinks of that very night
“There is nothing you can do to make me change the way I
feel for you,
But that night has made us one and yet it doesn’t fade
The way I think of you I will never be able to forgive you
But I try not to think of it too”
You smile and go to hug her but she pushes you away
Saying that you can’t be this way
“I have a boyfriend now” Turning her head
“I still hate you and can’t believe you yet I still love
you.”
She runs away from you as you stand there with everyone
staring
To shocked to move you break down and fall
To the ground cupping you head in your hands
Pouring your eyes out thinking about it all
You wish you never went
You hate yourself now.
Five months later not talking to her only seeing her pass
by
Never meeting eye to eye
She stops showing up at school
You get a note in the mail saying
“To a Dear friend
You were my best friend through thick and thin
You were always there when I needed you most
Yet until that stupid party with Drugs and alcohol
You took the most precious thing to me the only thing I
could never get back
I wanted it to be with someone special my very first time
Not drunk and wasted being rapped as they call, taken
advantage of
And by the worst person of all
But im glad it was you someone I trusted
Yet when you have this letter I shall be dead
My boyfriend raped me as well just like you did
But im glad you got me first.
I hate you but still love you.”
You can’t think of anything to say
You start to cry and fill with rage
You go to school and see the guy
Who was with you friend
As you almost pass by
You can’t stop yourself as the hate takes over
With one fast swipe you knock him down
To the ground, passed out he is
But you still won’t give in
Harder and harder you punch
Blood spewing out
People pull you away to find this bloody boy on the ground
The police are called and in cuffs you go
Down at the station they tell you so
The boy is dead and you might go to jail even though
You did it because you care
You show them the letter and they confirm it’s true.
Now you’re in jail
Hopping its fair
For only a few months.
Everyone hates you now even though you don’t care
At least you avenged you true best friend
Until the very end.
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Posted: 2005-08-06 09:49:49 UTC |
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2005-08-16 00:06:29 | Dark Neko |
Wow. Very deep, and very well done. I have a poem about this kind of thing as well, it's not a pleasant thing. :<
Good work though, keep it up. |
2005-08-16 20:41:43 | a rose by any otha name |
i feel the pain, i was the victim of rape two times and the pain is still fresh, |
2005-08-17 10:04:02 | Poet Gal |
sooo deep thts its cool for me. keep up the gd work. |
2005-08-18 03:08:51 | little_irish_rose |
all i can say is that this poem means alot more to me than any other that i have ever read..... i was raped too.... and after the first time i had tried to kill myself.... and after the second death was all i thought would help me.... your poem was very deep and very emotional.... keep up the work.... |
2005-08-18 16:57:08 | No Child Is Innocent Once Born |
That poem was good but there were a couple of times i lost track of were i was cause it was so long! |
2008-08-31 14:15:27 | dead |
This is amazing, I really liked it. |