you scoff at them
and laugh like
they have problems.
i guess you don't
know how lucky
i am to be here.

people bitch
and people moan
and say i've been there
i know.

no.

you dont know.

dont you realize
there is a difference
from thinking i want
to die,
and from trying to
actually die?

everytime it's said
jesus why are your veins so deep
inside i shed a tiny tear
and thank god they are
becuase if they weren't
i dont think
i'd be here.

confessions told
i cry inside
i try to be strong
i try to be bold
i guess thats why
this story laid
untold.

xox
Ellie J