I sit and stare at the wall,
hoping no one sees.
I think I'm going to loose it all,
I feel like I'm not me.

 Sitting there alone,
I feel as though I'm fake.
Suddenly I hear a groan,
and know I've made a mistake.

 When it is all over,
I sit myself up straight.
All the pain all over,
I couldn't stand the ache.

 I grabbed behind my pillow,
and took it in my hand.
All I ever wanted,
was for you to understand.

 I took a long, deep breath,
as I held it under my finger.
I felt a little closer to death,
then I pulled the trigger.

 Starring at the wall,
mommy please don't cry.
I have lost it all,
Good-bye.......