Tearful Anxieties 

As these tears trickle down
I realize my fears
as my heart pounds

my flesh cold as the ground
body weak , I cannot speak
these fears are taking over me

I can no longer see
who I am 
or what’s even me 

I am afraid of losing you 
my body, doesn’t know what to do

as these tears trickle down
my screams , make no sound
I just lay down
waiting for sanity 
to come swallow me

as these tears trickle down
anxiety wraps its arms around me
I can no longer breathe
but in my eyes its your face I see

one day I hope I can see
past the painful fury
that this hatful life has subjected me to
but I know 
that all my love goes to you

as these tears trickle down
blood flowing, smoothly now
painful images of losing you, subside
now your holding me as I cry

the attack is now over
I can open my eyes 
swallow my fears, remember them another time
for this moment is ours 
you wipe my tears as they trickle down
listen to my heart as it pounds
then pick me up off the ground

- Jenn ‘05