Like Me.

you cant live like i do
you can't do it like i can
i can imagine 
you aren't there
i can forget, 
i can cope, 
you'll see.
i can sleep and 
hybernate like a bear, 
if i just dont 
want to be there
and this is know 
you can't do like i can.
all day i can 
sit and just stare.
i think up stories 
and funny thoughts
and act like the 
world isnt there.
becuase, from my 
side of things
this world is just fucked,
and when you look 
around you'll see
not many have the talent
to screw up as badly as me
i run off the right tracks
then learn, or so i claim
then drag myself back up again
but only to again fall on my back
like a turtle overturned by young boys
this is my demise...
but no matter what
you can't do it like I can.
i die but manage to keep breathing
im paralyzed but i keep on going
i push my way through
i shove out the past, the future, the present
i shove out you..
my heart is so black 
and so full of holes,
but still 
i keep it beating..
becuase i can survive
anything hell you try adn push 
my into..
beucase despite 
my short comings
i love myself
through and through
and you can't do that
like i do.


xoxo
Ellie J