i've never been through
relationships but
i know even in my dreams
how to love
and be loved in return
but
i just can't help myself
from thinking
why do they always tell me
they'd wait for me
and will always be by my side
when just after i turned my back
there they are with someone?
many times have i experienced this
many times have i cried
and i keep wondering
is it me or am i just a fool for love?
i tried closing my heart
to avoid the pains and hurtings
but why is it that
when i try to open it for someone
everything's back like it was before
same pain
and same hurting 
same reasons
and same memories
i'm  trying
and must forget...