I don’t know what’s going on!, by My_pain_your

I don’t know what’s going on!, by My_pain_your_thrill

I don’t know what’s going on!
What’s happening to me?
Why cant I be happy?
Sadness is all I see,
I take these pills,
They calm me down,
But I still cant smile,
And you all frown.

I don’t know what’s going on!
Why does this happen to me?
I didn’t ever want this,
But I don’t know who I wanted to be,
I hide all my misery,
Behind a clearly fake smile,
But though I try so hard,
My disguise only lasts a while,

I don’t know what’s going on!
And you all see right through,
How can I fool everyone,
If I cant even fool you?
I am so tired of trying,
And living in a sad song,
You all think I can cope,
While I string myself along,

I don’t know what’s going on!
Please help me out!!
I don’t want these pills,
And a blade?  What’s that about?
This was never meant to be me,
I tried not to fall,
I clung on so desperately,
But in the end, I fell after all,

What’s going on?
I don’t know anymore,
I wish I was numb,
‘Cause my heart is so sore,
What’s going on?
I’m running away,
I am not strong, I’m weak,
What more can I say?

Posted: 2005-12-15 11:51:15 UTC

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2005-12-19 22:44:37	waterlily
wish i couldd take a vacation from my own self..to brando's island

2006-07-25 20:38:38

Kirsty (living in the light)

Nice poem. I wanted to tell you something that not many people know, well that didn't until recently because I only started recently. Well, I self Harm. I haven't done it for long and hope to stop, im trying to stop. So I don't know what you've gone through or anything, but I can understand why people turn to self harm. you can read some of my recent poems if you like. they are called scratches and pain.