This is how i feel:
Stupid, helpless, guilty, dead
tryin to think of new words 
while i'm layin here writin poems in my bed
listening to.....usher
its Superstar
i'm thinkin bout everything we've been through
and how perfect 'we' were
i still adore you
as i look down to my phone 
and realize that it's never gonna ring
i'm just gonna be here alone
i'm rired but i cant doze off
my heart is back in overdrive
at this point i'm thinkin 
"Why should i even be alive"
"It's not worth living, 
only to go through with this pain"
my mind shifts and i'm wondering
if its started to rain
listening to joe
as he sings "More and More"
wantin to get in my car, pull out in fromt of a truck, 
so that it can hit my driver's side door
Amanda Perex is on this CD
singing "I pray"
well my prayers havent been answered
my love has just gone away