as i sit and ponder things 
wondering what tomorrow brings
knowing not what to say 
knowing not from day to day 
i look at me and begin to sigh
i look at my life and begin to cry 
nothing is as it should be 
the life that i had planned for me
so alone  and confused
knowing not which way to choose 
so i sit here pondering things 
wondering what tomorrow brings
will i live through another day
will i feel the same way
with each emotion that i share
i wonder why i even care
as the tears roll down my face
i try to figure out my place
sadd and lonely as can be  
with a emptiness inside of me
no these feelings i cant explain 
all i know is i feel the pain
knowing not  what is expected of me
for these emotions is all i see
written by C.R
5-8-02