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i don't know what to do.
i don't want to throw away what i have with you.
but i don't want to throw away
what i might have with him.

the hurt. the pain. the shame.
the hiding. the confiding in other people.
the advice.
infatuated because of our problems and fights?
maybe.. someone please save me.

holding me and showing me
another side of life.
the apple falling on the other side of the tree.
an attraction i can't ignore.
either way, i'm crushing a heart
i'm torn.

a trial separation
losing feelings, and getting them back
falling through the cracks
can't keep myself on track.
i thought i knew what i wanted..
now the future is even more blurred
black and haunted.
this was never what i wanted.

i need to make a decision
someone close to me will be lost
either way.
the words aren't coming
what do i do, what do i say?
hearts are not objects of play..

loving or crushing?
diving in and/or subsiding?
through hell i am riding..
and no one is guiding.
my heart is confused
i have abused the one that i loved
and the one that i might..
i can't figure it out
is what we had worth the fight?
or should i let it be
and surrender our memories to the past
and pursue this endless night..
wading through hard questions
teaching me excruicating and exhausting life lessons
that must be learned..

what is it i most yearn?...

love michelle.
Posted: 2010-04-27 15:48:33 UTC

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2006-09-04 03:55:11User
Wow...confusing but keeps me guessing..