If i were to open my eyes
Would it all go away?
could i ever erase all the changes
bring it back to the way it once was
Perfect, the way it once was.
It's not that i still love you
It isn't
I just still remember what it felt like TO love you.
I can still feel the way it felt,
Not that it was your hand,
But that there was a hand that could send fire through me
All those silly moments,
All those intense moments
All those confused moments -
Irreplaceable.
The way those deep brown eyes once looked at me
The way the winter made us cuddle
The way you'd run to me if Id cry
The way you'd be patient if i were shy.
The first kiss, totally sneaked in
It's been so long since i've been in love
I could almost forget it ever happened
But every once in a while- i close my eyes
I was a geek angel
You were a brave rebel
Now that's poetic
We were just plain naive
How we met, how we bonded -
Feels so set up by fate.
You can get upset with me for hoping for it ever again
But you couldnt expect me to forget how it was could you
Such high prices paid,
for such a "forbidden" act
So many tears shed
for a broken heart that once was intact.
And yet, if i had to do it again
I'd make you n me happen again
We hurt those we love the most,
Those we love the most can hurt us the most
And yet sometimes, it all disappears
All the hurt, all the misunderstanding
That there once was a time,
when i'd catch you staring at me
-No occassion, no reason - just ur warm eyes
Watching over me while i was oblivious to myself.
Feels so real right now,
We'd been one for so long
That i can relive it even today
The memories just dont fade
Dont make me open my eyes
Dont make me move upto today
Each time I open my eyes,
Today's a shock
Then there's denial
Reconciliation
But for each trip- i pay,
I pay in tears, in sorrow -
for having lost something so beautiful
I'm going broke,
With each trip down memory lane
A little more broke than the last time
I need to get out of this place
I need to save up n start over
I need to forget, i need it to fade...
Is the realness gone yet,
Is the wound healed ?
Can i start living once again? |