If i were to open my eyes 
Would it all go away? 
could i ever erase all the changes 
bring it back to the way it once was
Perfect, the way it once was. 

It's not that i still love you 
It isn't 
I just still remember what it felt like TO love you. 
I can still feel the way it felt, 
Not that it was your hand, 
But that there was a hand that could send fire through me 

All those silly moments, 
All those intense moments 
All those confused moments - 
Irreplaceable. 

The way those deep brown eyes once looked at me 
The way the winter made us cuddle 
The way you'd run to me if Id cry 
The way you'd be patient if i were shy. 

The first kiss, totally sneaked in 
It's been so long since i've been in love 
I could almost forget it ever happened
But every once in a while- i close my eyes 

I was a geek angel 
You were a brave rebel 
Now that's poetic 
We were just plain naive
How we met, how we bonded - 
Feels so set up by fate. 
You can get upset with me for hoping for it ever again 
But you couldnt expect me to forget how it was could you

Such high prices paid, 
for such a "forbidden" act 
So many tears shed 
for a broken heart that once was intact. 
And yet, if i had to do it again 
I'd make you n me happen again 

We hurt those we love the most, 
Those we love the most can hurt us the most 
And yet sometimes, it all disappears
All the hurt, all the misunderstanding 

That there once was a time, 
when i'd catch you staring at me 
-No occassion, no reason - just ur warm eyes 
Watching over me while i was oblivious to myself. 

Feels so real right now, 
We'd been one for so long 
That i can relive it even today 
The memories just dont fade

Dont make me open my eyes 
Dont make me move upto today 
Each time I open my eyes, 
Today's a shock 
Then there's denial 
Reconciliation 

But for each trip- i pay, 
I pay in tears, in sorrow -
for having lost something so beautiful 
I'm going broke, 
With each trip down memory lane 
A little more broke than the last time 

I need to get out of this place 
I need to save up n start over
I need to forget, i need it to fade...
Is the realness gone yet, 
Is the wound healed ? 
Can i start living once again?