A trip down memory lane

If i were to open my eyes Would it all go away? could i ever erase all the changes bring it back to the way it once was Perfect, the way it once was. It's not that i still love you It isn't I just still remember what it felt like TO love you. I can still feel the way it felt, Not that it was your hand, But that there was a hand that could send fire through me All those silly moments, All those intense moments All those confused moments - Irreplaceable. The way those deep brown eyes once looked at me The way the winter made us cuddle The way you'd run to me if Id cry The way you'd be patient if i were shy. The first kiss, totally sneaked in It's been so long since i've been in love I could almost forget it ever happened But every once in a while- i close my eyes I was a geek angel You were a brave rebel Now that's poetic We were just plain naive How we met, how we bonded - Feels so set up by fate. You can get upset with me for hoping for it ever again But you couldnt expect me to forget how it was could you Such high prices paid, for such a "forbidden" act So many tears shed for a broken heart that once was intact. And yet, if i had to do it again I'd make you n me happen again We hurt those we love the most, Those we love the most can hurt us the most And yet sometimes, it all disappears All the hurt, all the misunderstanding That there once was a time, when i'd catch you staring at me -No occassion, no reason - just ur warm eyes Watching over me while i was oblivious to myself. Feels so real right now, We'd been one for so long That i can relive it even today The memories just dont fade Dont make me open my eyes Dont make me move upto today Each time I open my eyes, Today's a shock Then there's denial Reconciliation But for each trip- i pay, I pay in tears, in sorrow - for having lost something so beautiful I'm going broke, With each trip down memory lane A little more broke than the last time I need to get out of this place I need to save up n start over I need to forget, i need it to fade... Is the realness gone yet, Is the wound healed ? Can i start living once again?