Cut To My Heart

By No Child Is Innocent Once Born •
the small pointy blade held to my skin once more
what i thought had finally stopped had come knocking back on my door
and life seems like it was before
the small rush i got upon
re-stumbling on my old high
my old way of life catching up on me
as i hold my wrist tonight
and just lie life is as it was then,
but didnt i try?
try to make a new start to stop the pain inside
to no longer be that girl with the need to cut
the one who had no need to hide
to curl up within her lonely soul
n wish to have died
i thought i was no longer her
that i had finally gone past that part
i guess i was wrong cause im here with my old blade,
back at the start and each cut i make,
is one to my heart.