They Never Know Me

They don't know me, Don't know me inside, Of the tears I cry. Or the pain I hide. The cuts I cause, The blood I spill, The hours I spend, Planning my death and will. The hole I sink into, The dreams I see, How much I hate myself, Hate ugly pathetic me. I draw pictures slowly, And scare them all away, Can't you tell that I'm dying? That I'm really not ok?!!! I can't take this, Or do this anymore, I fall to my knees, And break on the floor. It's all too much, This is no life to live, I can take just enough, But he still gives. It just never stops, I just fall, There is nobody there, To catch my fall. My screams remain silent, My scars all unseen, My words unsaid, Stories of where I've been. My secrets concealed, Life a terrible mess, I can never change, So I will never confess. And they will never know me, No, never ever inside, Or see the tears I cry, Or the secrets I hide.