Explanation

Can someone please explain, What the word love means, Whenever I have it figured, It's never as it seems, Can someone please explain, How I ended up like this, I'm looking over my shoulder, Wondering what I missed, Can someone please explain, The defintion of heartache, A heart that hasn't loved, Is a heart that cannot break, Can someone please explain, Why I can't see what's real, Sifting through emotions, To choose the ones I feel, I'm going insane without knowledge, Of how this pain even came to be, My life became unrecognisable, It slowly transformed me, There wasn't a distinctive moment, Where everything went wrong, But still I should have known, Should have seen it all along, Can someone please explain, How I ended up this way, With crimson every night, Showing the price I pay, Can someone please explain, The day that my smile fell, When I had to start lying, When I said I was well, Can someone please explain, How everything got so deep, How energy faded, With inability to sleep, Can someone please explain, How I failed to see, Tell me all the reasons, Why these words came to be.