depression of the heart

cold and swollen this heart it beats in tones to low crying in a world that even to it is unknown familiar in the sense that yes it's been there before but confussing in the way of where it should be no more blood surrounds my every thought darkness seeps in through the holes what else is there left to feel when i feel nothing in my soul. alone my heart lays bleeding breaking in this hallow shell where even happiness is horror and these feelings my heart cant tell its been rejected so many times by those closest to me and the wounds that tear at every instant are the ones no one can see no on can feel my sorrow no one can hear my pain no body knows that inside this body im dying from loves acid rain it burns my heart and melts my love and breaks me into peices it tears at my soul breaks down my life and rips and shred the creases so my heart lays down in darkness forever to die alone this hated heart this cursed heart why must it be my own