Fall

stare in wonder how has she made it this far? how is she still stands tall how is it that you can't cause this bitch to hit the ground why won't she just fucking fall? you break her vision make her heart spin she feels like giving up and yet she just dont cave in. she wont let you see the tears she bleeds she won't show you the scars you carved in her flesh she wont continue on the dreadful path she doesn't even flinch when you laugh. we all know she thinks deep ionside herself that all eyes are always on her that everyone is making fun of what she is doing questioning the clothes she wears asks themselves why the fuck she is still eating... and yet there she goes straight and tall eyes forward blank.. but yet her heart will tell you all. she isnt brave she isn't strong what courage? it was a fucking lie she isn't going to last it's been lies all along. dont you see through her?? who the fuck does she think she is?? Ellie J, what the fuck. who are you?!?! WHO ARE YOU and what are you doing here? you aren't welcome we dont fucking understand the connection you associate yourself with us by what means? find yourself BE yourself. stare in wonder... she is still with us? ... she's alone. she's always been alone. when she cries nobody even cares when she screams the world turns their back and you ask yourself why she is jaded? well fuck she is so goddamn hated and you think she wouldn't be cynical by now? captivating. the lies, so fucking mesmorizing... standing tall how dare she why cant she just fucking fall. xoxo ELlie J