cant help it

I cant help it that I like him . If I could than I would stop, but it is too hard. Why me? Why do I have to be the one who feel in love with him? Liking him cost my feelings and repretation. People love to make fun of me for liking him. Now I am known as a slut or hoe because I like him. I cant help that I like him. I still do like him. VERY OLD POEM I HATE HIM SO MUCH NOW