waking up

I can still feel your arms around me. I felt so safe, so warm, so good. I fell asleep, and woke with you there. Your heart was beating so fast. a metronom to the lullaby of your breathing. I woke to you kissing me, I know you didn't want to, but you let me fall asleep again. and when I woke again, you were still there holding me. usually I dream of hell, but when I woke up I was in heaven