How Can I complain

How can i complain to you About my life going faster or slower About not getting that which I want About losing myself over n over. I see each obstacle coming my way now It's not like any of it's new I can almost predict what problem I'll face I know at the right moment I'll know what to do. How can I whine about another leap When I've already taken a fair share in the past And each time you've caught me unfailingly Each fall deeper n darker than the last. How can I feel guilty about what I have When I dont know if it'll even stay Or if it is the fruit of my own past labor That I should savor instead of let rot away. I went in expecting noise, fury and red But I discovered a new vision of rage I have learnt the real color of anger this time A deep powerful black - peaceful like a sage. I'm still getting the hang of manipulation Gathering the anger from each memory To contain it to one focal point Or dispel it and let it pass right through me. How can i whine about uncertainty When I can receive your sturdy hand at my beckon How can I cry over cruel loneliness when i feel you watch over me each second. Sometimes you refrain to keep me hurting longer Crazy surprises to keep me on my toes You let me handle enough to get me stronger And heal the rest till no pain shows. So how can I complain when you keep such good company? Well sir with the very larynx n the very same voice that YOU gave me! Cuz I know you'd miss it if I were to stop Cuz you know I count my blessings in swears Cuz I know that I have every right over you n Cuz I know you love hearing my sorrows n cares. For what have I in this whole wide world but you That won't leave, age, forget or betray And what keeps you going, waiting on me But my quest for the home from which i was led astray.