Impossible

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By <b>. QUEENIE .</b>

calories consume your soul no matter what you do you can never reach your goal. and you are dying to be perfect you are dying for something that isn't real its such a scary thing to watch youself lose control. you think you're in the lead and you think it's going good the second you turn around that porkchop makes you gain 3 pounds. and it was jsut three more pounds till im happy three more pounds and i win three more pounds and i've done it i've made myself become thin. you walk in fear of the numbers and you shy away from mirrors you hide your face at lunchtime from the judgement of your peers. and you say im not eating well thats not the case i just cant eat this here, infront of your leering face. the scale is the enemy and the mirror is a traitor but worst of all is the girl inside the one true hater. and the voices that come at night or whisper in your ear as soon as you reach for crisps or bacon the paralizing fear. the purging and the hiding, the lying and the pain its something that i wish to god i never let myself become this insane. the guilt from everything is starting to wear me thin haha, if only that were the case. if this were to be a game it's a game that one can never ever win. xoxo Ellie J

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June 7, 2006 02:58Faith

I definitly feel like this sometimes, even though i know it is a lie it's hard to ignore... great poem!

June 9, 2006 01:27. QUEENIE .

tank you for the comment... its a lie that is quite hard to ignore haha

June 29, 2006 06:46User

Your eating disorder problem..?? Well..how you're coping with it..??