Worthy

i hurt so much inside i dont think you could ever understand no matter how hard you tried. i feel so awful and always so guilty the lies i've bene living aren't so healthy. i want to just stand up tall and tell you the truth and not hold back any any at all. but im afraid of you and im afraid of me. im afraid of the inside girl the one who could potentially kill me. i dont want your worry or your pity i am not worth your time. i am nothing at all don't pay me no mind. and i love you all so much honestly i do otherwise i would have continued to lie to you. xoxo Ellie