whatever words i say
will never be good enough
and i dont know why
it is i have to feel this way
trust me
i hate it
i hate it
and i hate you.
everyday you make my life hell
everyday you do something
that makes me laugh aswell
and i get swept under the tide again
and im lost in your eyes and i
wonder why the fuck
it has to be this way.
i dont want this anymore.
i dont want you anymore.
and i cant believe those words anymore..
not that i ever could.



crap. crap. im not mad at james... i am jsjut. stressed and

angry with myself. why the fuck arent i over him???

xoxo
Ellie