Hiding

By Zanna •
It was bad enough
The pain I felt
Without your love
My all would melt
But now we find
A new level
A new hard pain
From a devil
Hiding in your room
Then in mine
Acting as though
It's all just fine
Touching and kissing
Then what's left inside?
Once you'd gone
I only cried
The feelings with you
Amazingly free
Safe from the world
And then look at me
What should I feel?
Am I happy or sad?
I don't know what to think
Is this good or bad?
It's wonderful to
Be with you like this
Your hands in my hair
Your lips catch a kiss
But I cannot stand
The fact that I know
You'll never love me
You'll just come and go
Am I really safe?
Or am I used?
Are you truly happy?
Or then just amused?
Do I even care?
As long as you're near
You know that I lose
All of my fear
But this will kill me
Tear me apart
Hiding away
Gods damn my heart.