i want

i want you to ruin me i want you to crush all that i was i want to come back beautiful i want to make them cry for all of the pain for all of these years. your whisper seduces my mind at your every command a look a stare the painful crash your beatings your lashing the blood and the tears can you not promise me this will be worth it in jsut a few years? i am going to be beauty i will be perfection i will be everything i ever wanted achieved in just one reflection. you claw and you grasp my throat under your boot i wonder what it was i was looking for all along when i heard the sweet melody of his siren song i followed and was lead down a path so dank i wonder now what to think of this mess. i want you to ruin me and ruin me you will. i want it so bad it's no wonder i already live in hell. xoxo Ellie J