this is what i get
for wanting more
i cant see past
the blurred tears
i cant see past
the desire fought 
for all of these years.
this is what i get
this what i get
this is what...

and who could have asked
for anything more
who would have said
i forget
the pain and the gore.
well dalring
im halfway there
and tonight we laid you
to rest forevermore
and now im halfway there
i'd join you
if only i could ever dare.

i hear the voice
i follow the smiles
i swallow his gaze
and i wander life
in this insolent daze.

this is what i get
this is the wake up call
this is what it's about
well fuck you darling
i wont take your fall.
but im already there
im falling
im flailing, screaming
but clutching nothing.

it was always nothing
i loved nothing at all
that will teach you
to be the strong one.

xoxo
Ellie J