Gossamer flutterings of happiness,
Snapped effortlessly by new isolation.
Deadened boredom and sorry thoughts,
Obscure the warmth of this destination.
I should be languishing in sweetness,
But there's a shard of glass embedded deep,
From the completely broken friendship,
That digs into my guilt during sleep.
When I awake the world seems still,
The veneer of my smile so plain to see.
Throughout my classes dullness abides,
Icy despair drenches through me.
You used to explain it all to me,
I relied on you, I admit, too much.
I search for animation to light these eyes,
For reassurance I'm wanted in his touch.
The textured pale green of each desk,
Reminds me of your hateful eyes.
I sit alone, abandoned it seems,
To contemplate your silent lies.
There's really no where else to turn,
I'm ostracised at every angle.
Radiance dims in the shadow that falls,
With anger in hands that want to strangle.
I wish I remained numbly spellbound,
Entranced by the light he provides,
But this enchantress has lost her power,
And nothing replaces the space inside.
Submerged into the emptiness,
I conclude that alone I must be strong.
With the last curtain call and no encore,
There's no triumph in knowing I wasn't wrong.
(But I should have known that all along).