My Beast and Burden

I long for a day when the sun shines on my face as I walk along the beach with the sand between my toes If only it were that simple I really long for a day when the beast inside disappears instead of me I really long for a day to feel what it is like to feel without the beast carrying me away into the darkness No ones knows the real me except those who also suffer with the beast inside I truely long for a day when the real me can be seen but who is the real me I try and think back to a day before the beast consumed my soul has it really been that long 25 years were did it go I desperately long for that little girl to win the battle with the beast and stand here today as a whole real me I desperately long for help but then someone without the beast will see maybe everyone without the beast will see and really be alone instead of just feeling alone I should be happy that the beast today has dried But with my teeth clenched and skin afire I long for the beast to return to erase me and my hatred of me