These tears are still falling

Today you should've seen my face,
it was wet from the tears i've cried.
i'm to ashamed for you to see me
so my sadness i'll try to hide.
sadness and suicide,
you've read between my lines.
my life and poems are full of loneliness
I've hoped to leave all this behind.
my daily life is torture
few tiny shots of joy.
now all i see in the mirror,
is a worthless broken toy.
they say that time will heal a heart
but it's been a while.
there seems to be no ending to
the suffering i have inside