Safe

My tears are salty on my lips Can't seem to stop to cry It aches too much inside of me For reasons I can't find (... Sometimes late at night I realize I don't feel at all... ... Maybe that's what hurts the most...) It aches, it burns, It makes me scream Keeps me safe from all My heart is dead for evermore My phantom pain - my wall (... Somehow it feels safer to hurt than not to hurt... ... I guess it's because it's the only thing I know...) And even though it's killing me I guess that's what I need I need my pain to stay with me I need my misery (... For who am I without what's shaped me through all of those years? ... When I lose myself, I'll have nothing at all...) When pain gets overwhelming Everything else disappears It feels like you're unbreakable When you can't feel, you can't fear (... It's not like I enjoy to be in pain or to hurt myself... ... It's just so familiar... And safe...)