The Damnèd's Island

Daddy! Are you proud of me? Am I who you thought I'd be? I know I'm not, 'coz I am bad And if you knew me, you'd be sad Living under the same ceiling Doesn't give a family-feeling Doesn't make me feel more safe Won't repair the broken days Mommy left for Heaven early We're better off without her, surely They forgot, but eleven years Has not dried my silent tears Has not helped my bleeding heart Only driven us apart Has not ceased the storm around But left me dying on the ground My hair is green, my mom's was blonde Cut all relations to family-bonds 'Coz I just wanna start anew But my past binds me, and so do you And do you know where your daughter goes? Did you ask me about the rose? Where I got it from, I bet You haven't even noticed it But I know, though, I wish I didn't I remember why I got it I remember tears from pain Outside in the April-rain I remember every slap Sitting on his naked lap I'm glad you don't know, you would die Of the shame, and so would I So dad! Are you still proud of me? My grades suck, they learned it from me I cry at night, why can't you see? I wish you could be proud of me I want you to save me, I really do Though this mess is not caused by you But I'm to weak to save myself A life-buoy's all I ask for as help Blood is dripping, slowly, slowly No one else than me can hurt me Forced to grow up way too early Therefore forever a child I'll be Bite my nails 'till nothing's left I want to rest... I want to rest... But I can't sleep, inside I'm dead My eyes are dry, my eyes are red And don't believe that I complain I don't, I'm just so sick of pain They're celebrating my decay My soul left my body, empty and grey Well, daddy, I know you're not proud of me! Don't try to deny, I know what I see; A father that wish he could love his daughter But wants to return her to where he got her Oh, daddy, what a fucken shame! That you too have to take the blame Together we're swimming, arm in arm To The Damnéd's Island, where we do no harm